Being spacious, spacious being, spacious be-ing.
This is in my heart as I journeyed from last year to this
one…a simple demarcation on a calendar, coupled with poignant personal losses
that have coincided with the year end/beginning transition.
I am reminded, yet again, that each day is a precious
crystal goblet, a sparkling gift that can be quickly shattered or gently
embraced. The fire of my soul fills the cup and spills out like the lava down
the mountainside. It burns brightly, reflecting miniature flames on the walls,
taking me outside to the fire pit for a midnight blessing.
Having decided years ago not to make resolutions for the New
Year, I return each January to visit quietly, deeply, in silence or ample
chattiness, with the practices I
engaged the prior year and those I want to journey through in the coming one. A
resolve is not my way; I do better with the idea of streams… of consciousness,
of continuity, of ebb and flow…a more natural, fluid idea that mimics Life. I
do not declare. I do not try. I practice.
How appealing to my spiritually striving human self…or my Spiritual Being
living in this human experience.
A few years ago I spent the year practicing “being.” Last
year, I was engaged with a broad and sweeping practice of “spaciousness” that
oozed into every crevice of my existence.
I long to be, to become, to reside in the deepest place of
Being, to be a human being, a spiritual being, a being big enough – spacious
enough – to practice something more powerful, more profound, more
genuine…present being, being present, a being of presence.
This 2014: easy to pin down to twelve rectangular pages of about
thirty squares each, but the flow of which is much more difficult to tease out
from the interwoven threads of the best gift I have ever been given – breath
and life and coursing blood which know no geometries other than the pulsing of
the soul. This 2014: a practice of a Spacious Being be-ing spacious in the
infinite and divine spacious being.
To honor this, I went out.
I went outside into the fresh sunny air and created first
the circle of rocks of alternating color.
Then the gathering of things done living (dried and fallen).
Then another gathering of things just becoming.
And I placed them all together and recounted a thing or two
from each month of the past year. Then I made prayers for things to come in
2014: sacred commitments, holy promises, blessings for all beings…I tended to
and augmented (I altered) this old year/new year altar the next day. I shared
it with a loved one with an invitation to embellish the divine circle of
transition. I breathed on it. It breathed on me. I touched the items there and
they felt my touch. I photographed it. I visit it each day until the natural
course of weather and time create their own transition from there to not.
Intention for practice: I am a Spacious Being be-ing
spacious in the infinite and divine spacious being.
